Monday, June 11, 2012
FITNESS-EXERCISE-HABITS
This picture is how I have been feeling . TORN. See I have always loved fitness, exercise, and been interested in eating healthy. Still I have never practiced it very religiously. If it became hard I found excuses to not do it. If it interfered with the life of others, I put what I wanted aside and put cleaning the house, and caring for other things first. Truthfully this was not very hard due to the fact that I didn't really enjoy eating healthy or exercising. It was kinda like I wanted to DIE every time I had to workout. THEN I did the slim in 6 program. My goal was to eat mostly healthy and not skip any workouts. I was successful, missing only 1 day in 6 weeks. With that I also went to the gym and did other workouts as well. I didn't LOVE it. It took SERIOUS discipline most days, I would not finish the video until literally almost midnight. That was because I would put it off then not be able to go to sleep until I went down and got it in. Even if I had already gone to 2 classes that day the goal was the video and it had to be done. The thing that made that possible is my husband was out of town for 3 of the weeks and my kids were in school. See when others aren't around it is soooo much easier to make ourselves a priority:)
After that 6 weeks exercise became a habit. The feeling it brought, I came to LOVE and now when I don't get it in I'm a beastly person. Saturday I didn't go to my morning classes due to guilt and I was off all day. See it's like the song from WICKED. "Something as changed within me. Something is not the same."
I want to workout and I want to eat healthy. I actually want to eat the fruit not the frosting. If you have read previous posts this is not normal for me. This quote below is one I see all the time, I think it is true ALWAYS after the fact. Yet while I am in the workout my mind is feeling nothing but regret for all the things I should be doing instead.
I LOVE step classes and other classes at the gym. I do not love the early morning ones, nor do I love getting up early. I have older kids we tend to be up late & sleep is also important:) RESULT.... I find when I am at the gym my mind says LORI you should be home cleaning, when I'm cleaning I want to be at the gym, when I'm doing either 1 of them I think LORI you should be spending time with your kids. WHY am I like this???? It's not like I don't spend the rest the day with them. Furthermore who cares if the house is a little dirty? ONLY ME:)
When I am with others and they are not eating healthy, I find if join in eating unhealthy then I am mad. If I do eat healthy I feel bad. I have a family trip coming up and I know it will be hard to stay focused on it due to these reasons. But man I work to freaking hard for each and every pound I am not about to throw it away. I am trying to adopt the thought of GET OVER IT LORI!!!!
I guess when all is said & done it's all about choices,
If is were easy I would have conquered this mountain a LONG LONG LONG time ago. It's not meant to be easy. The effort we put into it is what makes the result so exciting! The endorphins we get after a 4 mph walk around the block are nothing like the ones we get after a die hard, kick butt workout that leaves our clothes drenched in sweat. Those ones are the ones that keep me wanting to come back for more. I love waking up to sore muscles and knowing I did something yesterday. I am not where I need to be yet, I still have a SUPER LONG way to go, but I am loving this journey.
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