WII FIT

Let me tell ya I've about had it with this  thing.  We have a LOVE, HATE relationship:)  When you make a profile for yourself on here all the people are these cute slender images.  WELL, WELL, WELL, after you weigh depending on what that weight is,  that slender image changes.  If you are NOT slender your profile person becomes a little fatty!!!!!

 It gets worse then you stand on the scale,  it goes to your weight then proceeds to yell out that's obese, overweight or whatever the case may be.


The HATE relationship stems from  feeling like NO MATTER what the freak I do my person is staying chunky.  Why do I care?  I just do!!!  I have 8 pounds to go before this dang thing stops yelling out that's OVERWEIGHT!!!!  I guess that sounds better then when it was telling me that's OBESE right:)

The LOVE relationship stems from the motivation it gives me to move that dang line down.  When I get it down however my person better change as well or I'm changing my name & making a new profile:)

RUNNERS-TRIATHLETE MAGAZINE

I LOVE this magazine. You see, I totally SUCK at running!!! I have been putting forth effort for weeks.  Still, after all this time, I'm lucky to run a 10 minute mile.  As bad as I am at running, something about running totally fascinates & inspires me.  Part of it is the fact that I can do 2 hours of many other exercises--it's hard, I'm tired & sweaty.  Try and run 8MPH fresh and I'm like KILL ME NOW!!!!!! My legs take on this BRICK feeling:)  Running is in a category all of its own.  Part of it is, in running YOU CAN'T CHEAT.  You are either running or you're not.  Most other exercises you can go at your own level, whatever that might be.

One of my favorite stories about self-improvement and how far  determination can take you is about Desiree Davila.  It can be found Here.  She is what I would call someone full of PASSION!!!!

The other Magazine I can't seem to get enough of is this one--







I was checking them out at the library,   I would never have time to read everything I wanted before it had to be returned.   The other day they had stacks of them they were getting rid of for 10 cents each.  Score for me:)  I bought them all!!!!!! Can you say "KARMA--I LOVE YOU" :) :) :)


 I love reading what the body is capable of doing.  I love reading about how others made their bodies do it.  I love reading how they act, think, what they do.  I think sometimes it's easy to forget what a disciplined body can actually do. 

I WILL not be doing anything triathlete-worthy today, I'm pretty darn sure it wont be this year. But someday I want to be able to do what these outstanding athletes do. My time & season for this is not now.
 The time these people put into training to be FREAKING AMAZING, I don't have right now.   I am a MOM and love and want to make that my first priority.   I do have however a few minutes here, an hour there,  and a couple hours on Saturdays to do something.  Someday I want to be where they are.  If it's simply finishing a marathon with the desire to do it again, that will be a good start in the right direction.

FITNESS-EXERCISE-HABITS

This picture is how I have been feeling .  TORN.  See I have always loved fitness, exercise, and been interested in eating healthy.  Still I have never practiced it very religiously. If it became hard I found excuses to not do it.  If it interfered with the life of others,  I put what I wanted aside and put cleaning the house, and caring for other things first.  Truthfully this was not very hard due to the fact that I didn't really enjoy eating healthy  or exercising.  It was kinda like I wanted to DIE every time I had to workout.  THEN  I did the slim in 6 program.  My goal was to eat mostly healthy and not skip any workouts.  I was successful,  missing only 1 day in 6 weeks.  With that I also went to the gym and did other workouts as well.  I didn't LOVE it.  It took SERIOUS discipline most days,  I would not finish the video until literally almost midnight.  That was because I would put it off then  not be able to go to sleep until I went down and got it in.  Even if I had already gone to 2 classes that day the goal was the video and it had to be done.   The thing that made that possible is my husband was out of town for 3 of the weeks and my kids were in school.  See when others aren't around it is soooo much easier to make ourselves a priority:)

After that 6 weeks exercise became a habit.  The feeling it brought,  I came to LOVE and now when I don't get it in I'm a beastly person.  Saturday I didn't  go to my morning classes due to guilt and I was off all day.  See it's like the song from WICKED.  "Something as changed within me.  Something is not the same."

  I want to workout and I want to eat healthy.  I actually want to eat the fruit  not the frosting.  If you have read previous posts this is not normal for me.    This quote below is one I see all the time, I think it is true ALWAYS after the fact.   Yet while I am in the workout my mind is feeling nothing but regret for all the things I should be doing instead.

I LOVE step classes and other classes at the gym.  I do not love the early morning ones,  nor do I love getting up early. I have older kids we tend to be up late & sleep is also important:)  RESULT.... I find when I am at the gym my mind says LORI you should be home cleaning, when I'm cleaning I want to be at the gym, when I'm doing either 1 of them I think LORI you should be spending time with your kids. WHY am I like this????  It's not like I don't spend the rest the day with them.  Furthermore who cares if the house is a little dirty?  ONLY ME:)

  When I am with others and they are not eating healthy,  I find if join in eating unhealthy then I am mad.  If I do eat healthy I feel bad.  I have a family trip coming up and I know it will be hard to stay focused on it due to these reasons.  But man I work to freaking hard for each and every pound I am not about to throw it away.  I am trying to adopt the thought of GET OVER IT LORI!!!!
I guess when all is said & done it's all about choices,


If is were easy I would have conquered this mountain a LONG LONG LONG time ago.  It's not meant to be easy.  The effort we put into it is what makes the result so exciting!  The endorphins we get after a 4 mph walk around the block are nothing like the ones we get after a die hard,  kick butt workout that leaves our clothes drenched in sweat.  Those ones are the ones that keep me wanting to come back for more.  I love waking up to sore muscles and knowing I did something yesterday.  I am not where I need to be yet,  I still have a SUPER LONG way to go,  but I am loving this journey.